I just started a devotional with my daughter called The Princess and the Kiss. This is a story about how much God loves each unique individual and desires the best for all of us; it is about purity of soul, mind, body and spirit. I feel wholly inadequate to be talking to her about this.
Evil used events and choices from my past to try to ruin my chance at purity across the board. Just the thought of doing this study with her started my tears flowing, palms sweating and heart racing. Thoughts rush at me, trying to make me feel like a piece of garbage: “You are such a sham.” These are the types of lies that I must fight to have this conversation with my precious daughter.
Thankfully God, who forgives all our sin (Colossians 2:13), loves me as a unique individual and desires the best for me. Because of this, I am choosing to stay in the place where I am precious daughter of the King (1 John 3:1). I am a new creation in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17). There is victory in bringing things long hidden out of dark into healing light (1 Peter 2:9). God’s desire for me is the abundance of restoration not condemnation or shame (Isaiah 61)
While I may feel inadequate to talk about this, I can be used by God to encourage my daughter. He is able to speak to and help her as she grows (Ephesians 3:20). I will discuss purity of mind, body, soul, and spirit because living in the light brings freedom. It is not a easy thing to humbly admit inadequacy in any area, but I refuse to live in shame. I will not pass that on to my kids nor model condemnation to them; that is not what God desires for me or our home.
I spent most of the time during our first devotion time together choking back tears. I don’t know if she understands why, but she will understand more as we study and grow together. I trust God to reveal to us what we need to discuss when we need to discuss it and will pour out His Spirit to enable us to do so in love. That’s what the King does for His Princesses.